April 2, 2020
I’ve got nothing. Nothing to say. No direction. Nothing. That’s how I feel today and I’m sure how many of you have occasionally felt over the last weeks of confinement. It’s depressing enough to think about having been confined to the house for the last two weeks without considering how it is projected we will continue to be confined for an additional six to eight weeks. I know this is necessary and if we all work together, we will slow the spread of the virus, but sometimes shouldn’t it be about me?
When I get depressed or start feeling sorry for myself, I remember the opportunities these days have provided. I’ve been able to read and study where usually I didn’t have the time. I’ve been able to sit and reflect where usually there were other things that got in the way. I’ve taken the time to purposefully greet my neighbors, even if from across the street. I’ve learned new skills and abilities to enable me to reach out virtually to others when before the technology seemed daunting.
Maybe the last two weeks haven’t been that bad after all. Perhaps amid the silence I have found a renewal of strength. While this is a different reality than before, it is a reality that opens new possibilities. I think I’ll go mow the lawn.
THOUGHTS: It’s normal to feel isolated and alone when we are deprived of human contact. A number of episodes of the old series ”The Twilight Zone,” focused on the fears surrounding isolation. I give thanks for the technology that allows me to stay in touch even while staying apart. I give thanks to family and friends who are willing to virtually lift me up. I hope you are able to find this peace in your lives as well.